Counting Down

Time flies! The day I go back home is in the corner though I haven't booked a ticket yet.

Every time I chat with friends, they always ask when I will come back. I am sure, probably late July after finishing my thesis and get the degree here. That's it.

Sincerely, after deciding not to pursue a Ph.D, I did consider to establish my career here. Being rational, it is more opportunities here though more challenging. To most persons, start a career here is better than go back to Xiamen. Form economic point of view, that is true. But human is human. Human can not be rational all the time they are at most partial rational that's what we have learned. To me, credit is critical to a person. I know how much my parents would like me to stay here. But I realize that we have an oral contract with Xiamen University. We have to go back to finishing the other degree. I always tell them that we have to go back. They try to persuade me to seek for a employment right here. I don't like to expect too much on that, they will be disappointed when I give up. They try to persuade me to actively seek for a job. But it is really tiresome to apply for a job, CV cover letter. I hate it. However, I did send out some CVs but only for the positions I like it. Anyway, I have to start a career soon, not matter whether I will go back to China or not. Sadly, what I got are only reject letters. Never mind, and I am not really care about it because I don't expect much when I send out an application.

It is coming to the end of this join degree program, WISE would like us to go back and has sent out notice to us. Prof. Cai met us yesterday. It can not be clear any more, we have to go back otherwise it will be a lose-lose strategy. It is not a headache to me though do have a little disappointment. But just a little. I always believe that when God closes one door he will open the other one. It is nothing to worry about. But I have to figure out what I want and how I can achieve it. A simple and complicate question. To be successful! True. But how to define success? Everyone has different points of view. A desert to a person may be a poison to the other. I will be more clear about what I really want after I try. A saying that “The man who tries to do something and fails is infinitely better than he who tries to do nothing and succeeds.” Keep in mind never regret after making the choice.

I was so exciting yesterday though we have taught a lesson. May be I am sure I will go back home very soon. I will meet my dear parents my grandma though we have video chat now and then. I am so fond of home.

Keep positive. It is your attitude not your aptitude determines your altitude.

Wonderful weekend ahead!